Postby dheelojecel » Fri Jul 06, 2007 7:51 am
Ok.. I've been feeling a little down lately about something and I guess I just need to express my feelings to SOMEONE.
Everyone thinks that I'm a tramp. They think I sleep around, date many guys, and all that crap. Which, honestly, I do date many guys... But I don't sleep with them.. I've only had sex with one guy.. ONCE. But people still think that. There's just one problem.. I'm bisexual, and I like girls more than guys.. Honestly I don't really like guys that much at all. I want a girlfriend.. The trouble with that is, if I express who I am to the world (aka my school, parents, , really conservative town), I'll be hated. I mean SERIOUSLY hated. My volleyball team would harass me till I quit! I always have to put on an act to hide my sexuality.. and it makes me lonely.. I can't be myself and I can't like a girl.. which is pretty depressing. It also sucks, because I can't find any girls around here who are also lesbians/bisexuals.. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't have the strength to stand against the crowd, but I'm tired of hiding who I am... advice?