I apologize in advance for this essay
I grew up around non-Somalis as I was born and raised in a foreign country. When I came to Europe, i naturally gravitated towards non-Somalis since my Somali was terrible and most of the Somalis were recent arrivals from Mogadishu. The fact that they spoke with a southern dialect made it even worse. I remember there was this kid who said to me "aboowe barooni ma dheelee". When he saw that I was blank he said "barooni ma kasee" and I literally thought he was speaking a foreign language since we say "kubad ma ila ciyaareysaa?"
I never really associated with Somalis in my youth and most of the Somalis in my city thought that I was habashi. Most of them came as qaxooti so they were very different culturally from my family. Plus they generally had a bad reputation so I used to be embarrassed to be associated with them. It's a shameful fact but this is the truth. These niggas even used to get punked by dhegacas of all people
The fact that my father had left Sanaag when he was a kid didn't exactly help either.
This was in my youth. As I became older, I began to understand the importance of being around your own and accepting your people for better or worse. I put a strong emphasis on learning the language, the history, heck I even went hardcore into qabiil history
My point is, for many people it's just ignorance and the fact that, for whatever reason, they never really were around strong, positive, ambitious Somalis so they grew up thinking they were special snowflakes. Notice how most of the self-hating Somalis will tell you that their family is the exception to the rule that all Somalis are bad.
There are kids out there who internalise the negative stereotypes about Somalis and you can't really blame them in most cases.
I remember there was this Somali model in my city who used to only be around white people. Her boyfriend was white, she was plastered all over the city.. very good-looking too. My brother met her by accident at a supermarket and she started to talk to him when she recognized him as Somali. Mind you, he was a lot younger than her and she had no sexual desire for him. She kept asking him about how she could get in touch with the somali community, she wanted to go to weddings etc.. the girl was totally isolated from the community and didn't even speak the language but she desperately wanted to connect with us. Shit was sad. Imagine how she grew up. Probably in some village, surrounded by nothing but whites. Felt inadequate because she didn't really fit in with them so she probably did some research on somali culture and wanted to establish a connection. She was simply a product of her environment.
You never feel truly complete as a human beings until you accept and love your own blood, your own background. This is why I'm big on instilling a strong sense of identity in our youth as I myself have been through the confusion of growing up a stranger, moving from country to country and not truly feeling at home anywhere. It taught me a lot, but it would've benefited me a lot more to avoid going through that phase and having to figure this shit out by myself.
Brothers, it's especially us men who need to lead the way wallahi. Women can say what they want, but at the end of the day they look towards us for guidance and direction. Many of us are failing our communities.