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i thought i'll share it with you lot because its the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me.
Prior to wearing my hijab and dressing in a modest manner i used to do alot of things (which im sure most of you can relate to) but never beyond my boundaries.
I was terrified of wearing the hijab for some strange reason i was unable to comprehend at the time. I always used to say i will start wearing it full-time when i get married or when Allah swt guides me.
But after some time i realised what it was i was scared of there plenty of girl i know that wear the hijab on a on and off basis go clubbing/ weddings and its off without a thought smoke pot subxanalla.
so i thought i'd be 100 times better than them if i am clean but dressed in a inappropriate manner according to the teaching of islam. I was afraid i'd end up like them
It was just coming up to my 18th birthday and as usual you expect some things to change but they didnt in my case i was the same person as ever (well after my quran tutor gave up and my head-scarf came flying off at the age of 13).
Ive always been a deen orientated person deep down inside took much pride in my deen. Anyways one day about a year ago me and my girls we're sitting in a shisha place as usual discussing the usual our next soon to be joint brehs food you name it and deen always comes up one day a freind of mine was telling me about some girl that used to go to her college how she started speaking in arabic and acting hysterical doing many thing muslim girls wouldnt dare dream doing.
Keeping the long story short i broke down into tears i cried so hard that night that i couldnt speak i was so depressed not becaused i feared that might happen to me but because i feared the day of judgment and i was by far not ready to die now i know i havent done anything too extreme but my good deeds were here and there and often contiplated.
That night when i got home i made a prayer to Allah swt from the bottom of my heart i just wanted some courage to change my ways and guide me.
Soon after i woke up one morning and i thought ''right today is a new day allah swt has granted me so what have i to lose'' without a doubt i knew it was the right time for me to go back to practisng my religion.
i cant explain the feeling i had butterflies in my stomach my head was clear i knew exactly what i wanted i felt pure and untouchable.
I didnt know how to thank Allah swt so i started going to islamic talks watching the islamic channel on sky 813 alhamdulilaah all praise due to Allah swt i feel brilliant with my new look and what kept me motivated was when i came to work for the first day in my hijab and i got plenty of compliments here and there much to everyone's suprise that i work with they had no idea i was a muslim i was gob-smacked of course but now i know where i belong and the hijab comes with plenty of responsibilites something i am adjusting to very well alhamdulilaah.
My friends always ask me what made you wear the hijab and act different i just tell them time and time again i prayed and my prayers have been answered.
An extra bonus is my mother walks with her head up high now that i am fully covered.
All Praise Due To Allah swt!!
W/s w/r w/b
