This past year, there have been 3 weddings in my family.....yes 3 weddings 1 year.
3 of my older siblings all decided to get married, no one wanted to wait lol.....No, if your wondering, that's not why i'm jealous or terrified lol
The reason why i feel these mixed emotions is, My Mother and her Friends.....
They amaze me beyond the description of mear words, in this past year they have helped my mom accomplish things an army could not do.
With absolutely no catering they have fed on 3 separate occasions, over 1,000 ppl....horrifying....
Why would u be horrified Ayantu??? lemme tell you, it's simply because i can not imagine being able to do the same thing, and if i tried, could my friends and i handle that looool that would be the day...Its impressive the way they came together, i loved it, and to be apart of it just made it all the more impossible to see myself re-create the same thing for my children.....could i really? i mean i have friends....i wrote down and memorized all the recipes and techniques.....but really, i mean really...wouldn't it be more practical to just call a caterer??
horrified i wouldn't be able to give my children that *if they wanted it or not*
Jealous that they make it look so effortless.....
Ayaaantu its refreshing to see you happy and proud of something. You are terrified because u fear u being the next 'one' to say 'I do'. You are jealous .......lol......u r jealous because.....hhhmmm i rather not say. 
