The fault in my stars:Finding my one true love.

[Julkimi]

At the age of 24, I haven't found my one true love, I either thought I loved the jerks who broke my heart or thought I loved idiots who didn't know anything about love. I want to feel like Hazel grace and Augustus Waters. I never felt compelled to search for a true love because I was sheltered with the love of my family, knowing they would always be there for me, I thought I didn't need anyone else. Sadly Somali men don't know how to express their love, I want a man who is crazy about me, who would do stupid things for love. You know scream at the top of his lungs infront of everyone declaring his love for me. As cheesy as this sounds, I am tired of my robotic life, waking up, pray, eat, socializing and work. I want love. I want to smile for no reason just the thought of him. I want to cry about the thought of losing him. I always believed in true love but thought it was impossible. I am tired of these meaningless compliments from men who will not love me for my awkwardness, temper tantrums and calm me down when I have my panic attacks. I want the one that understands me for who I truly am, a clumsy, caring, sensitive girl from the Midwest. The one who would make fun of me infront me but will kill the person who dares to mock me. If I die tonight, how will he remember me? is my one true love exist in this universe? will I ever meet him? Will I make him eat Quinoa salad while he cringes at the thought of eating it but instead makes fun of me for my food choices.

And to this I must conclude my rambling. Does true love even exist? Are we lying to ourselves? I guess I will never know until I conquer it.

[Basra-]

So......u have watched the CRAPPY Cancer Movie huh? Akhaas. *Roll eyes*

[Julkimi]

Basra: I poured my heart and soul into this topic while crying and sweating. And this is how you reply to it. I am done with humanity.

[Basra-]

*Roll eyes*

Nayaa--- get a diary book, or make an online personal diary journal. This is a public forum. Sentimentality is frown upon. LOL U r a grown woman if u r 24! Get with the program. Try this exercise. Look at the mirror-- yell ---WEAK WEAK!!! Snap out of it. Look beyond your selfish self. Send someone money in Somalia. I guarantee YOU, u will feel good! LOL

[EvolSyawla]

This made me want you-know-who all the more. *sigh

Basra, stop being an old witch. Nothing about wanting to be happy is selfish, maybe you should start practicing self-love. Much of your evil nature may be cured. ^__^

Love exists. It's not all candy cotton and everything we dream it would be, all the time, but it is very possible and does happen.

"Do not stop seeking what you love, or you will end up loving what you see." Hold fast to your ideals. But don't go out looking for it, you may trick yourself into believing the frog is really more than he is.

I wish for nothing but the best for you, and inshallah he is everything you thought of above, and more.

Faaraxs are capable. It's just not that easy to find them haha.

[Julkimi]

*Roll eyes*

Nayaa--- get a diary book, or make an online personal diary journal. This is a public forum. Sentimentality is frown upon. LOL U r a grown woman if u r 24! Get with the program. Try this exercise. Look at the mirror-- yell ---WEAK WEAK!!! Snap out of it. Look beyond your selfish self. Send someone money in Somalia. I guarantee YOU, u will feel good! LOL

Why did I read this with the voice of the wicked witch of the west from the wizard of oz.

[Julkimi]

Evol: Is it wrong to want the fairy tale love?.


P.s

Thanks for the words of encouragement. It makes my journey a bit hopeful.

[Basra-]

Juls Because---the wicked witch is telling the wise truth! Glad u channeled my wicked witch voice to read my wise advice!

[LilEmperor]

BOOOOOOOOOORRING

[Julkimi]

Juls Because---the wicked witch is telling the wise truth! Glad u channeled my wicked witch voice to read my wise advice!

Basra ever been in love?

[Basra-]

VOMIT.

[Julkimi]

VOMIT.

Was it that bad?

[ZubeirAwal]

I actually read that, sounds like you're really frustrated, the ironic part is the description you gave of the man you'd like to meet is quite what I was for my shit-face of an ex, but things have become better since and the clarity within my mind has matured.

Jul, keep your feelings within you leaving them suppressed, will make no change in the minds of those around you.

I suggest singlemuslims.com............ I joke.

[Basra-]

Juls

U know--why LOVE doesn't hold any value to me? Because I can see light at the end of the tunnel. I am not stuck in the dark. I know how the story ends, therefore, the middle bickering and squashing is useless to me. I know--we all end up OLD, and then DEAD. So u know how the story ends, why do u care how u reach there? I mean, seriously---get with the program. I care about how I am going to end up in heaven though, because that has something to do with my end. Where I am going. Love is useless huuno. Its a fleeting momentary disillusion. It usually last minutes not even hours. After orgasm, and stinking sweat in the air, suddenly u want him out of the room. Is that love? OK, its sex. But Love is also Sex. One cannot survive without the other.

[ZubeirAwal]

Basra you was on somalinet when I was learning how to say "Hooyo suuliga ayaan tagaya"